Chapter 2145
I can’t be selfish and ask him to watch the woman he loves the most feeling sad for another man.
I’m used to being free in front of him, and hiding my emotions is like being a novice. If I were to force a smile, it would seem that there is more ambiguity between me and Gu Han, rather than being honest and open and facing my true emotions.
When I left the house, Fu Shenyan changed into the casual clothes I had chosen for him, so he looked casual and lazy.
I laughed bitterly and joked about him, “Are you sure you want to dress so harmlessly when you’re going to meet your love interest?”
“Yes?” Fu Shenyan didn’t even raise his eyelids, walked up and grabbed my shoulders and walked out, saying as he walked, “Didn’t you notice that this is a couple’s outfit with the one you’re wearing?”
I looked down at my own clothes and saw that they were, but the next moment, I couldn’t laugh.
I understand that it’s hard to see the difference between lovers and rivals, but Gu Han’s current state would only aggravate his condition, and it didn’t seem appropriate for us to go dressed like this.
The hand on my shoulder squeezed my strength, and Fu Shen Yan said, “I’m not that stingy to take advantage of someone at a time like this, even if I have to win, I’ll win in a dignified manner.”
“Gu Han won’t want to see me, even if he hears my name, he might live a few days less, so you’ll just have to go see him yourself.”
Pursing his lips, he didn’t know what to say for a moment.
“But I’m not atmospheric either, I’ll have to find my balance elsewhere and wear a couple’s outfit as if you were with me.”
His tone was light, as if he was talking about someone else, but I knew best how irrational Fu Shen Yan was when he was jealous.
But for my sake, he restrained himself.
What constitutes love is the willingness to try hard even if you don’t want to, for the sake of the other person, to always put the other person’s happiness first.
The Bible says that love is constant endurance, and Fu Shen Yan has fleshed out this statement.
Too late to be moved, she was pushed into the car by Fu Shen Yan.
In the corridor of the inpatient unit, Gao Jian sat in a chair with her baby in her arms, mother and son clinging to each other, their eyes lost in thought, as if their souls had been lost long ago, and what sat here were but two shells.
They are even more emaciated than the last time I saw them.
It is no exaggeration to say that one sick person can bring down a family.
There was a glint of surprise in Gaijin’s eyes at the sight of us, and then a smile appeared on her pale face as she stood up with the children, probably the only way they could show their gratitude.
I exchanged glances and without unnecessary words, I walked once more into the room that seemed to be able to suck the life out of people.
Unexpectedly, Gu Han was actually awake, but when he heard the footsteps, he didn’t even turn his head back for a moment, dragging out a weak voice, thinking he was being tough and shooing people away, “Here we go again, if you really love me and want me to live a few more days, take the kids and remarry before it’s too late and don’t show up again ……”
He had long been unable to support himself, saying these conniving words in a staccato manner, having to stop every few words to struggle to catch his breath.
This is probably not the first time he has said such harsh words, with the sole purpose of driving Zhang Yang and his mother and son away, not wanting to drag them down.
Or maybe the proud soul that is still alive does not want to be pitied.
I tried hard not to cry out, but I still made a squeaky sound after all.
When Gu Han finished, the room was quiet for a while, as if sensing that something was wrong, he finally slowly tilted his head over.
The four eyes met at one point, and his eyes told me that my presence was, for him, a lynching.
Chapter 2146
“If you don’t want to meet in this situation, I can go back first.” His voice was soft, but he could make sure Gu Han could hear him.
No one would want to be seen by their loved one in a lingering state of illness, and everything should be done gradually to take care of his emotions.
Gu Han just looked at me as if time and space were frozen, his eyes motionless and lifeless, with only the irregularly beating heartbeat next to him to prove he was still alive.
In the world of adults, silence is a euphemism for rejection, and perhaps Gu Han was not ready to see me yet.
I squeezed a smile onto my face and gave him a slight nod, telling him to take it easy, that I could understand his feelings and would not complain.
I had just turned around when Gu I knew you would come, sit down. I knew you would come, sit.”
Taking a deep breath, he pushed down all the despondency and sobbing in his heart and straightened his facial expression before smiling and walking to the bedside to sit down.
“How are you feeling today? Better?” The words of greeting were always inevitably cheesy, yet watered down.
“Do you want to hear me say yes or no?” Gu Han spoke with great effort, yet stubbornly maintained his self-deprecating expression, not knowing who he was fighting with.
He laughed, reached out to tuck in the corner of the blanket for him, and said half-jokingly, “It’s already this time, so there’s no need to take care of my feelings, you’re the patient, the patient is the biggest, just say what’s on your mind.”
The old and the sick and the dead are like a farce. If you get hurt in a small way, you can lecture and reprimand and say a lot of things against your heart.
But when it comes time to fight death, they always smile and tell everyone that it’s okay and that they will get better, as if they can cheat fate and change their lives against the odds, but it’s just a trick to deceive themselves and others.
The more it comes down to the wire, the only way to hold on is to deceive oneself.
“No good.” He said it extremely loudly, probably using all his strength, and then his voice trailed off, “I’m very hard and painful, very unhappy.”
I knew it was a bet, but I was still upset, my hands moving, not daring to look him in the eye.
“What are you afraid of?” Gu Han breathed heavily, his warm breath radiating out and turning into a layer of mist on the respirator’s mouthpiece.
“Nothing.” Restraining my heart, I shook my head, doing my best not to let my emotions show on my face, saying a thousand words of comfort, “Don’t be afraid is the right thing to do, I’ve got the world’s leading doctors, they’ll figure it out, you’re Gu Han, you’ve come back from the dead three times, it’s not that easy to be finished.”
I paused at this point, raised my head and gently clenched my fist and pushed Gu Han’s arm again, “Be strong like a man.”
Gu Han slowly lowered his eyes and glanced at the place I had touched, the emotions in his eyes still didn’t change, there was silence for a while before he slowly spoke again, “I’ll insist if you marry me, otherwise, it doesn’t matter if I die now.”
“Don’t say childish things.” Sighing, helplessly apologizing, “You saw it all didn’t you, my wedding to Fu Shenyan, Gu Han, I’m living a good life now, very happy, you really shouldn’t cling to it anymore, let yourself go, what belongs to you has actually always been there, you just can’t see it.”
Gu Han’s gaze was a little lax, as if he was lost in thought, and as if he was listening intently, calling for people to be unable to guess his mind.
“If you don’t want to hear it, I’ll just not say anything, I’ll come to see you every day from now on and take care of you personally, everything will be fine, don’t think too much ……”