Chapter 669
I tilted my head to look at him, a little confused, forgetting that it was already late autumn in the capital and the weather was gradually getting colder and gloomier.
Looking at him, I felt a little blocked in my heart, taking the initiative to hug the waist, burying my head in his arms, my voice low, “Fu Shen Yan, sit with me for a while.”
His original warm anger was suppressed, his warm gaze fell on me and he frowned, “What’s wrong?”
I sighed, my head hurting badly, “Nothing, just sit with me for a while.”
From Huai’an to the capital, I had thought that everything, everything would be going in a good direction, but I had neglected Gu Han, and even more so, Cheng Jun Yu.
I had raised her for four years, and from my bones, I took her for granted as my own child, and her presence made me almost forget that my child had died, but when I returned to the capital, almost everyone was reminding me of my painful, unpleasant past with Fu Shenyan.
He seemed to understand how I felt, holding me in his arms, building tightly, attaching himself to my silence and quiet.
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We are in time, hollowed out of courage by memories, step by step on the road to death.
Cheng Junyu came to see the Four Seasons almost every now and then, and each time he did, he and the Four Seasons got closer and closer.
I was so scared of the Four Seasons that at first I acquiesced to Cheng Junyu’s visits in silence, but as time went on, I took the Four Seasons with me and prepared to leave.
In November, it was getting colder and colder in the capital. On the evening of the weekend, after Cheng Junyu had left to see the Four Seasons, the Four Seasons were playing with the dog in the courtyard.
I watched Four Seasons with an indescribable feeling in my heart, sitting beside her and watching her interact with the dog.
When she saw me sitting for a long time, she looked back at me, her eyes shining slightly, “Mummy, will you come and play with Snowball, please?”
I looked at her and shook my head, my eyes a little tired, “You play with him while mummy watches.”
Seeing me, she didn’t rush to play with the dog, but got up to look at me, her tiny body leaning against me, soft, her head nestled against me, “Mummy, are you sick?”
I shook my head and hugged her, feeling a little more at ease, and said, “No, mummy is just so tired.”
She nodded and said with a small sigh, “Mummy seems to be quite tired lately, is it because of the exams?”
I smiled lightly and spoke, “Sort of!”
The little one seemed to be thinking of something, and after a pause she looked at me and said, “Then mummy, wait for me.”
I sat down and looked at the snowball rolling in the grass and felt a bit more pain and suffering in my heart.
The thought of it brought up bad feelings.
“Pop!” There was movement from the villa, and I froze for a moment before rushing in.
I saw that there was broken glass on the floor in the kitchen and Four Seasons was being pulled away by Fu Shen Yan who had come in from the front yard, moving too quickly and so looking a bit rude.
Four Seasons didn’t react to what was happening, so after about two seconds she burst into tears, out of shock.
I ran over and held Four Seasons in my arms while Fu Shen Yan went to turn off the gas on the kitchen.
Only when Fu Shen Yan had checked it was safe did he come over and looked at me and couldn’t help but speak, “Why did Four Seasons go into the kitchen?”
I shook my head and hugged myself, coaxing her for half a day to behave, relieved to see that she was not hurt in any way.
When she had calmed down, I asked Four Seasons, “What’s wrong? Why are you suddenly in the kitchen?”
Chapter 670
Looking at the kitchen, it looked like she had put the glass bowl on the gas stove to burn, and that was what had caused the explosion.
Four Seasons stopped crying, her tiny body still shaking, obviously frightened, her voice choked, “I want to cook eggs for mummy, my classmate said that if I eat more eggs, I won’t get sick.”
It was only when I looked closely that I realised there were two eggs sitting next to the gas stove, and I couldn’t tell what emotions I was feeling for a while, it was all very complicated.
I hugged Four Seasons, and for a while my heart ached and clogged up. These days I often seemed a little distracted by Cheng Junyu’s arrival, which is why Four Seasons thought I was sick.
“Four seasons, I’m sorry, mum ……” the words that followed, I did not say, my heart was clogged with pain and my eyes were sore.
Fu Shen Yan looked at us, some complex emotions floating on his handsome brow, he walked over to us and reached out to encircle us, his voice low and steady, “Okay, it’s okay, next time whatever you do, make sure you’re safe.”
I pursed my lips, my stomach felt a little queasy, and after holding it back a few times, I finally couldn’t hold it in, so I went straight to the health centre.
I vomited everything out of my stomach, and when I slowed down, both Four Seasons and Fu Shen Yan were standing at the door, a small and a large one looking at me, their eyes full of worry.
“Uncle Fu, is mum sick?” Four Seasons spoke up, her big eyes red and swollen.
Fu Shen Yan pursed his lips, emotions suppressed on his handsome face. After a long time, he looked to Four Seasons and told her to go play with the snowball in the yard.
I dried my hands and came out of the bathroom, seeing Fu Shen Yan still standing in the doorway, subconsciously paused and opened my mouth to explain, but he preempted me.
“Let’s go to the hospital!” After saying that, he pulled me towards the outside.
I frowned, not in a good mood, and pushed him away, my voice a little lower, “I’m fine, maybe my stomach isn’t so good lately, so I’m prone to regurgitation.”
He narrowed his eyebrows, his eyes already overflowing with scarlet, “How long has it been?”
How long has it been?
I was a little slow, when I thought about it it seemed like ages, ever since I met Gu Han, it seemed like I was particularly prone to regurgitation, every time I was down, I was prone to vomiting.
“It’s been a while.” Maybe it really was sickness, especially since Cheng Junyu had been visiting the Four Seasons a lot lately and I always seemed to be prone to it.
He narrowed his eyebrows, and the emotions on his face, though well controlled by him, were not good, I could feel it.
“Let’s go to the hospital and get it checked out.” He spoke, his voice low and introspective, barely audible emotion if you didn’t listen closely.
I was getting a little annoyed, not willing to dwell on this with him, and simply pushed him away, my voice rising a few notches, “I said, I’m fine, I’m fine, why can’t you listen to me?”
He froze, and so did I. This was the first time I had spoken to him like this since I had returned to the capital, and the tone of my voice even carried the implication of disgust.
I didn’t know what to do for a moment, I opened my mouth to say something to remedy the situation, “I ……”
But half the time I didn’t say a word, and for a while my stomach felt even worse.
Chen Yi came over and when he came in, he saw that Fu Shen Yan and I were at a standstill, Fu Shen Yan looked at him and spoke, “Call and ask the deputy director of the First People’s Hospital, can we go over there now and see the doctor?”
Chen Yi nodded, looking at the somewhat strange atmosphere between Fu Shen Yan and I, fumbled for his mobile phone and made the call.
I couldn’t control my emotions, I didn’t want to go to the hospital, so almost at the same time, I grabbed the phone out of Chen Yi’s hand.
Almost uncontrollably, I opened my mouth and shouted angrily, “I said, I don’t want to go to the hospital, what are you guys doing?”
I’ll go far away with her and won’t stay by your side to be an eyesore, why do you have to let Cheng Junyu visit her every day? I watched her learn to speak, to toddle, to what she is now, why should I give her up to someone else? I couldn’t give it to him in a million years.”
The emotion was overwhelming, even to the point of being a little crazy.
I didn’t notice, watching the way Fu Shen Yan looked at me, from shock to pain to pity, and I frowned, unable to read it anymore.