Chapter 713
He was dumbfounded for a moment and spoke with some remorse, “I’m sorry, I didn’t think it through.”
I didn’t say anything, he stood beside me and uselessly opened his mouth.
Fu Shen Yan’s face was a little gloomy, vaguely cold.
Mo Zhi Zhan’s gaze fell on me with a kindness and pain that I could not understand. Four years had not seen them, and these two originally elegant and reserved couples seemed to have aged somewhat.
Time can really destroy everything that is beautiful.
“Fu Shen Yan, this is your way of making amends?” Mo Zhi Zhan opened his mouth, his voice clearly tinged with anger, “Your selfishness has turned a family that could have walked well together into what it is today. Bringing my daughter here to suffer with you and then forcing us to forgive you for your faults?”
Fu Shen Yan’s body shook and he tilted his head to look at him, but did not say a word.
Now that it had come to this point, no matter what was done, someone would be hurt.
In the villa, Mo Fei Lin came downstairs with his coat in his arms, frowning slightly, draping the plush coat over me and speaking, “If you want to let go, someone has to get hurt, Shen Shu, come in with me, what you have to do in this case is to accept everyone’s apology if you want to.”
I pursed my lips, my eyes fell on Fu Shen Yan, I knew that in this matter, the fork in the road where things went wrong started at the moment he asked me to switch with Lu Xinran.
All the pain and suffering started from that moment too.
I was so happy to see you.
She took off her coat and shoes and socks and walked barefoot into the snowdrift, with the cold north wind, she seemed to sway with every step.
Mo Zhi Zhan looked at her, full of heartache but not beginning to be half-persuaded.
As I watched this, I didn’t know what it felt like, but it wasn’t good.
Every one of them was punishing themselves, all seemed to take their so-called punishment for granted, so it seemed that I should be relieved.
“What are you doing?” I spoke, my voice calm, looking at Fu Shen Yan who was frozen stiff in the snow, and smiled, “You know I love you and don’t want you to be hurt in the slightest, but why do you still do this? The wound I buried in my heart, you let it die buried just fine, why do you have to uproot it like this to sting me?”
“You torment yourself like this, put yourself in my shoes and think what I should do? Persuade you to get up, moved to tears telling you I forgive you, forgiving you for changing my life, for accidentally killing our child, all this I forgive you, Fu Shen Yan, should I not be like a saintly mother, tolerating all your hurts?”
All this could have been done without mentioning it, as long as it was not mentioned, I could have pretended that all this had never happened and walked on through his love and tolerance today.
“Fu Shen Yan, why did you force me to tear the wound open and bloodily take out all the rotting flesh inside?”
The first thing I did was to look at me and open my mouth, but I didn’t say a word.
Then he looked down, smiled mockingly, and spat out the words in an obscure manner, “It was my poor consideration.”
I suppressed the uncomfortable feeling in my heart and vaguely suppressed a wave of anger, “Fu Shen Yan, what do you want me to do now? What do you want the Mo family to do? Tolerantly, I tell you, everyone doesn’t care about all this anymore, and in the future, we will all live in harmony as if nothing has happened, isn’t it?”
Yes, I couldn’t let go of the hurt I had felt, but what was the point of abusing myself like that?
The so-called atonement should not be like this.
Looking at Ivana in the snow, I didn’t know what to say, “Do you know what you’re doing now? You’re forcing me to tell you with bitterness that I don’t hate or resent you anymore, I’m asking you not to hurt yourself. A mistake is a mistake, even if you have to be punished, it’s not what you’re doing, what’s your purpose in doing this?”
Chapter 714
“Tell the crowd that I have been forced by you to forgive you under your bitter ploy, and if I still haven’t let go, it’s me who is narrow-minded, me who is cold, who is watching you freeze to death in the snow, and still I am indifferent, and you are making it known to all that I am cold and heartless.”
“Shen Shu!” At these words, Lin Ivana’s face turned white and there was no trace of blood on her lips.
She opened her mouth, but she didn’t seem to know what to say.
I pulled off the plush coat I was wearing and handed it to Mo Fei Lin, opening my mouth lightly and saying, “Thank you!”
She took it, nodded, and spoke, “It’s late, staying over?”
I shook my head, “Drove over.”
Then without bothering to look in the snow, I went straight out of Mo’s house.
The snow was extraordinarily heavy this night.
I didn’t know if Fu Shen Yan had returned to the villa, and when I returned to the villa, I closed the bedroom door behind me and stayed awake all night.
Now that I had come to this point, no matter what I did, I would be wrong.
The capital was silvery after a night of heavy snow, and before dawn, the silvery white light was already shining through the window and lighting up the bedroom.
I couldn’t sleep, so I glanced up at the clock and saw that it was 5am and time to get up.
I wrapped up in my clothes and went downstairs. The light in the living room had been on all night, so I could see that Fu Shenyan had not returned last night.
As usual, I went into the kitchen to make breakfast, waited for the Four Seasons to get up and took her to school.
It was probably too early, as Four Seasons’ school was not yet open.
“Mum, we’re too early, I’m so sleepy.” Four Seasons yawned, leaning against the car and squinting as she tried to go back to sleep.
I rubbed her hair and gestured for her to go back to sleep, my heart filled with more than a few unspoken emotions.
After waiting almost half an hour for the school to open, and dropping Four Seasons off at school, I found myself with seemingly nothing else to do.
When I found out about Lu Ke’s news, it was after I had returned to the villa and Fu Shenyan had stayed out all night, so I picked up my phone to check.
I was attracted by the line of headlines that popped up, and couldn’t help but click on it to take a closer look, only to find out that Lu Ke had bullied his classmates at university and had been recorded on video.
In an age of rapid information development, people become saints on a moral high ground, sympathising with the weak and spurning the abusers.
Gossip is rife and as a top white collar worker at Fu’s, it is only natural that she would be fired.
Coincidentally, the release of Lu Ke’s video distracted some of the journalists who had their eyes on me.
Mo Fei Lin arrived, wrapped in a thick down jacket as it was still snowing heavily, and entered the villa with a layer of white snow falling on her clothes.
She took off her coat and patted down the snowflakes as she said, “Looking at the looks of it, I’m afraid the capital is going to be closed to traffic.”
I took her clothes, hung them on a hanger, handed her a cup of hot water and spoke, “Has the capital ever been closed to traffic?”
She held the cup of water to warm her hands and sat down on the sofa, laughing, “Definitely, it’s a regular thing, the roads in the capital have always been notoriously congested, and if it snows and falls heavily, the likelihood of an accident is even greater, so you can’t do without road closures.”
I nodded, remembering that I had fruit at home, and was about to get up to get it when she pulled me back, “Stop fiddling with this and that, let’s talk!”
Almost subconsciously, I froze for a moment, “Talk about what?”
“Fu Shenyan and the Mo family!” She opened her mouth, always straightforward she was hardly in suspense.
“What happened four years ago is in the past, I won’t advise you to let it go, whoever goes through such things suffers, so you don’t need to force yourself to have to forgive or let it go, I know that you are more conflicted and difficult than anyone else in your heart.” She said this directly, but it was also true.