Chapter 859
Fu Shen Yan did not come in, presumably resting in his study.
The next day.
A light rain at Qingming time.
I woke up with a sore throat, I’m afraid I had a cold, insomnia tends to lower the resistance, it seems not without basis.
When I opened my eyes, Fu Shen Yan was raising his hand to test the temperature of my forehead, his face sullen.
“It’s probably a fever, it’s fine!” I spoke, getting up from the bed.
He got up and poured water and medicine for me, “Take the medicine and rest for a while, if it’s not good by noon, I’ll come back and take you to the hospital.”
I nodded and leaned back on the bed, watching him go out.
It wasn’t that easy to get the fever down, so I found my papers and took a taxi to the hospital.
Instead of registering for a respiratory unit, I went straight to the Chinese doctor, who saw an older man.
He didn’t check my pulse, but called a very young boy and said, “You take her pulse.”
This was training a student.
The boy looked at me, but sat down at the table somewhat nervously and let me reach out.
After taking the pulse for half a day, the boy looked at the old man and then at me and seemed a little unsure.
The old man nodded towards him, gesturing for him to speak at ease.
He hesitated for a moment and spoke, “From the pulse, it appears that there is internal injury to the spleen and stomach, a deficiency of kidney water and yin, a deficiency of blood and yin and yang.”
The old man didn’t say anything, he just nodded and after gesturing for him to get up, the old man took my pulse again himself and after a moment, the old man looked at me and said, “How old is the little girl?”
“Thirty-one!”
The old man nodded his head and spoke, “Any children?”
I nodded, thought about it and then shook my head, he frowned slightly, “Yes or no, just nod your head.”
“No!”
He frowned slightly and said, “You have had a child on your pulse, and you gave birth at full term.”
I pursed my lips and told him the truth, “The foetus died of suffocation.”
He frowned and said after a moment, “Girl, if you don’t want to have a baby, you can still barely maintain your body with a little bit of regulation, but if you plan to have a baby, I’m afraid it will be difficult. the same thing.”
I froze violently and looked at him, puzzled, “But the last baby was artificial, not ……”
He nodded, “I know, but that’s exactly what it is, and with your age, not to mention the fact that it’s hard to conceive, and even if you do, it could easily result in the same situation.”
Coming out of the hospital, my mind was a little buzzing, all my focus after that surgery was on the baby.
It never occurred to me that I would not be able to conceive because of the surgery, when the baby was in the womb, kicking up against the lining of my uterus because the water had ruptured and it had struggled out of instinct when it was suffocating.
In addition, there was also a tear in my reproductive tract, a number of infections and automatic rejection by my immune system that prevented fertilisation, so it was almost impossible for me to conceive again.
How funny life can be is when you are so full of hope and ready to start a new life again, and then reality hits you so hard that you can’t even move on.
When I met Gu Han at the hospital, I didn’t know if it was an accident or if he was looking for him on purpose.
I hadn’t seen him for six months, and he seemed to have haggardly changed a lot, but he was still handsome.
He blocked my way and his voice was low, “Shen Shu, let’s talk.”
Chapter 860
I frowned and tilted my head at him, “We have nothing to talk about.”
He sneers, a little self-deprecatingly, “So I’ve disgusted you that much?”
I purse my lips, not explaining.
“Most of Gu’s was bought by Fu Shen Yan, the business and industrial courts are investigating, just waiting to give me a sentence, is this result satisfactory to you?”
He smiled lightly, saying these words without the slightest hint of difficulty, as if he was talking about someone else.
I pursed my lips, “Go and sit down.”
It was in the lounge area under the hospital building.
The April breeze was gentle, not cold or hot, and there was a moment of silence to look at him.
Seeing that he was looking at me, I couldn’t help but smile lightly, “Do you regret saving me in the first place?”
He froze slightly, then smiled, “Never!”
I lowered my eyes and smiled somewhat relieved, “I didn’t understand at first why Fu Shen Yan would suddenly drive Gu out of business, he wouldn’t let me contact you, let alone answer any messages about you, once you were mentioned, he broke down and would even start to lose his temper with me. ”
Lifting my eyes to look at him, I sighed slightly, “You were the one who spoke to him that day at Mofilin’s wedding about that child, and about me, weren’t you?”
He pursed his lips, looked at me and nodded, his gaze a little heavy, well he didn’t seem to be trying to hide anything from me, and spoke, “Well, when the baby was taken out of your womb, it wasn’t going to live long because of the lack of oxygen, the blood filling the inside of the brain, and the squeeze, even though there was still breath.”
The sudden pain that started in my heart made me shake a little uncontrollably and I couldn’t even breathe a little.
He looked at me, his gaze aching, “I asked the doctor what the success rate was if I saved it and he said it was almost none, when I put him in the incubator he had opened his eyes, they were big and bright, very much like yours, I thought if he could grow up, he would look like you in the future, but I’m sorry, the odds were too small, so I chose to give up without you being awake. ”
I tugged at my hand, my fingertips pinching into my flesh, and my nerves began to ache.
“Why didn’t you try? It wasn’t hopeless, at least you let me see him, even for a second, but why, ah, couldn’t you just let me see him!”
He shifted his jaw, his face somewhat subdued, “He’s deformed, and even if he survived, he’d be a drag for you.”
“But he’s my child, he was just hurt when I didn’t catch him as he flew towards me, how can you blame him!” I covered my heart, a little breathless.
He opened his mouth and looked at me, his gaze was full of indifference, “I told Fu Shen Yan to let go of you, Shen Shu, I don’t need a child, if you like children, pick up Jane gave birth, I’ll give her enough money to go back to M. The child stays with you to raise it, like the four seasons, it’s also your child, isn’t it?”
I looked at his somewhat grim face, a little scared, when had he become so extreme.
He knew I couldn’t get pregnant, couldn’t have any more children, so he wanted to force Gathering Jane out of the way if she had the baby, and then trap me with the baby and the love he had.
I couldn’t help but feel so horrible for him, “Gu Han, don’t you think you’re being too selfish like that? Gather Jane loves you more than you think, you hurt her so recklessly, you’ll never meet anyone who loves you as much as she does in the future.”