Chapter 1519
In the car, after a long day of tossing and turning, she leaned back on the passenger side and closed her eyes to rest. The Gu family’s yard was still the same as before, except that the surrounding landscape had been repaired over the past few years.
The pond in the yard had been filled in and fruit trees planted. It was winter and the leaves were falling off the trees, which were bare and jutting.
I parked the car outside the courtyard and watched Gao Jian go in, she took a few steps and suddenly looked back at me with a serious face, “Shen Shu, if, I mean if, if Mr. Fu was gone, would you back off and choose Gu Han?”
I froze for a moment and looked at her, meeting her eyes, which shone brightly in the dim streetlight, “No!” I gave this answer with certainty, “You’ve said it, it’s if, there are no ifs in my world, I’m a stubborn person, this life is Fu Shen, it can only be Fu Shen, except for him, others for me, are passing.”
She looked at me, sighed Avray, for a long time, looked at me and nodded, “En, good, I know!”
The man’s problems, really, were quite sudden.
Watching her go in, I looked at the filled pond and froze slightly, everything seemed to go back to the old days, the first time I saw Gu Han was at Gu’s house, back then he spoke little and the reticence on his face was obvious.
When I thought of the day he picked me up at Gu’s house, he was chasing me behind him when I got off the bus and I accidentally pushed him into the pool.
After a long time, I turned around and prepared to go back.
When I saw the black Bentley parked next to my car, I froze for a moment, and the person standing next to the car was none other than Gu Han, whom I hadn’t seen for a long time.
The black eyes were looking at me motionlessly, a black suit, the whole person looked lonely and indifferent, the air of rejection in his body became more and more obvious.
“When did you get here?” I opened my mouth and walked towards the car, not knowing if it was because I was too distracted, I actually didn’t hear the sound of the car.
He pursed his lips and looked at me, his gaze too silent to make me unsure with a bit of fear.
“Even without him, you wouldn’t have chosen me?” He came out of nowhere, causing me to freeze.
He had heard what I had said to Pickup Jane?
“Uh …… I said it all, no ifs.” I looked at him, I had a moment of embarrassment, but only for a moment and then it was fine, “In fact, you and I both know in our hearts, there is no if, Fu Shen to me and, to put it more lightly is a couple is a lover, he and I are two pieces of floating weeds, each other can meet in the sea of people, can walk hand in hand, is fate or perhaps a gift. To put it more Avray, it is actually my luck, he is like a lighthouse in the sea of my life, his light makes me firm and brave to go on, Gu Han, I do not know what you understand love is, but in my case, it is definitely not second best, it has nothing to do with who, because love itself is independent, we can love many people in our lifetime, just like you, who have loved me and will love others later, but me and Fu Shen, have become more than just love, he and I are more like an individual, we are a community and need to face our lives together in the future.”
Chapter 1520
I didn’t know if he would understand after all that I had said, so I looked at him and said, “Gathering Jane is very good, if you look at her carefully, you will find that you have really missed too much over the years, when I was very young, I especially liked to eat sugar gourd, but I could only eat it once a month, sometimes Grandma wouldn’t even let me eat it, but it was because there was no way to satisfy, so as a child I always thought about it day and night. I was always thinking about the sugar pudding, when my grandmother gave me pumpkin cakes made from pumpkin, the taste is very good, but because I can eat every day, or as long as I want to eat, my grandmother will make me, so over time, I do not think the pumpkin cakes are good, then I slowly grew up, I have pocket money to buy their own sugar pudding, I was very excited, bought several bunches, but after eating two bunches I got bored. But I got bored of them after two. In fact, it’s good to have different things on your mind from time to time, and now that I think about it, the best thing in my memory is not actually the candy canes, but the pumpkin cakes, but Grandma is no longer here, so that taste will only remain in my memory.”
He looked at me, probably because he had lost weight, the bridge of his nose was getting higher and higher, and his dark eyes were getting deeper and deeper, “Shen Shu, I am far from thinking of you because I can’t get it, do you still remember the first time you came to the Gu family? At that time, you did not like to talk, always silent, or light smile, very quiet, my mother said to me privately, such a girl like you, very gentle, I thought at that time, a woman, what is the use of gentle? Later you pushed me down into the pond at the edge of the pond, now that I think about it, I have forgotten how cold the water was, the only thing I remember, indeed that was how you looked, open and bright, angry but beautiful. You were covered in blood when I carried you out of the warehouse, you probably forgot, you were tugging at me, stubborn and stubborn, telling me that you had to save the baby, that kind of you was heartbreaking, I thought at the time, how could someone like Fu Shen deserve you, he didn’t even know how to protect you.”
I pursed my lips and bowed my head slightly, so much had passed that some faces were lost.
He continued, smiling bitterly, “At that time I thought, no matter what, I must take care of you in the future, the child was born, I saw it, it was already deformed, I was afraid that you would be uncomfortable I sent the child away, did not want you to see uncomfortable, later you knew that the child was gone, mental trance, always woke up in the middle of the night sitting alone in the room dazed, I did not know at first, later found out, then all night long. Then when I found out, I stayed with you all night long, and after a while you would sit by my side, pulling me along and telling me to close my eyes and go to sleep, rather as if you were coaxing me.”
“You probably don’t know that those were the happiest days for me, you would always wake up in the middle of the night and tuck me in, sometimes you would wake up in the morning and go to the kitchen, saying you were going to make me breakfast, you were in a trance, from time to time the breakfast you made was either bad or inedible, you would add sugar as salt to the noodles, in fact the sweet noodles were quite tasty, later I always You said there was no if in your world, but Shen Shu, you don’t know how cruel that was to me.”
I looked at him, my mind hurt through the old days, suddenly some hard feelings, I can not deny the thing, I owe him a lot, can not pay off a lot.