Chapter 2147
The words were just finished when Gu Han suddenly raised his voice again.
“I want to marry you.”
A little unexpectedly, he looked up and met his paranoid eyes.
“You can’t refuse me.” Gu Han said coldly, “I became this way because of you. At the beginning, the Murong family decided to skip human experiments in order to control Fu Shenyan and use you directly to verify whether radiation could target genetic changes, it was me who traded myself and entered the lab for you, leaving behind the current aftermath.”
He smiled as he said it, miserable and frail, unable to hold a grudge even with the incomprehensible words coming out of his mouth.
“Oh …… there is no cure for the after-effects of radiation, you owe me that, Shen Shu.”
The same patient, who can really bother to count anything.
The illness has reduced Gu Han’s ability to distinguish his consciousness, he just hasn’t realized yet that I’m not the same person I used to be, and bottomless forgiveness and sympathy will never work again.
A suffocating silence fell over the ward as he finally reacted to his rejection and slowly lay flat, staring vacantly at the ceiling.
“It seems that even if I do give my life, you won’t look at me more than once, it’s no fun, really no fun, it’s better to die right away.”
When he finished, he stopped speaking, and his eyes refused to open as if they were stained with glue.
To go along with the patient’s wishes, even if it is just a lie, still serves the purpose of encouragement as long as the patient’s wishes are met.
But Gu Han is too clever and knows me too well, and a well-meaning lie would be laughable in front of him, or even seen as sympathetic and possibly counter-productive, rather than truthful.
And the truth, is that I can’t promise anything, I can’t give it.
The people who are good to me, the people who love me, are not just Gu Han, he can take my life whenever he wants it, but I have to live well for the people I love, and I can’t hurt another for the sake of any one.
After sitting for a while, Gu Han didn’t know if he had fallen asleep and kept refusing to communicate with me, so I had to leave first.
“Then get some rest, I’ll see you tomorrow.” Getting up, I checked the instruments one last time, grabbed my handbag and turned to leave.
The moment I pressed the door handle, Gu Han pulled a hoarse voice and called out to me.
“Shen Shu.”
“Unless you change your mind and want to marry me, you don’t have to come back either.”
When I looked back, he was still quietly in the same position as earlier, as if he hadn’t been awake.
But it was clear to me that he just wasn’t asleep, and that the words he had just spoken weren’t a hallucination; they were a knot in his heart, an obsession of over ten years.
I said I was sorry a million times, but I didn’t dare to say it out loud, so I closed the door and retreated.
Seeing me come out, Gaijin immediately bounced up from her chair and asked with concern, “How is it?”
Her two hands were clenched tightly together, as if this was the only way to give herself some strength to sustain whatever news she was about to hear.
I shook my head, not daring to tell those conversations as they happened, “Not too good.”
The mouth opened, and the eyes refused to open as if they were stained with glue.
Even what the patient meant, even if it was just a lie, still served the purpose of encouragement as long as it satisfied the patient’s wishes.
But Gu Han is too clever and knows me too well, and a well-meaning lie is ridiculous in front of him, and may even be seen as sympathy, which could backfire.
And the truth is that I can’t promise anything, I can’t give it.
The people who are good to me, the people who love me, are not just Gu Han, and he can take my life whenever he wants it, but I have to live well for the people I love, and I can’t hurt another for the sake of any one.
Chapter 2148
The crystalline moisture in Gaijin’s eyes instantly drifted away and her gaze darkened, clearly this outcome was not within her vision.
Yes, how could he not be satisfied after all the concessions she had made to bring in the man he had longed for.
Was it too much to ask that she wanted her husband, the man she loved, to live.
No one could give an answer, just as no one could persuade her to turn back.
The mother and son were told to go to the nearest Chinese restaurant.
Fu Shen Yan took the lead and ordered seven or eight dishes, which were quickly served.
Gao Jian still couldn’t muster up the energy and only casually instructed the child, “Eat.”
After saying that, she clutched her chopsticks and followed the example of those performance artists, motionlessly lost in thought.
He sighed helplessly and picked up the bowl in front of him, serving the soup while advising, “Man is iron and rice is steel, if you break your body, who will take care of Gu Han?”
Then he got up and put the soup in front of the child, and picked up his empty bowl, serving it to Gao Jian, “Good boy, eat, eat enough so that you can take care of your mother.”
Fortunately, the child did not inherit the stubbornness of either parent, and after listening to my words and glancing at Gao Jian, he obediently picked up his chopsticks and ate in a very gentle and quiet manner.
Just after sitting down, Fu Shen Yan naturally picked up his own bowl and served the soup in front of me.
Smiling, I took it, and glancing at the way Gu Han’s son was eating, I couldn’t help but look twice, “Son, what’s your name?”
“Gu Yi Yang.” He looked up at me, his eyes looked extremely similar to Gu Han’s, but his eyes were more pure than Gu Han’s, this young boy, is youthful and rosy.
“Gu Yi Yang ……” Followed by silent reading, can’t help but hold the corners of the mouth, “is a good name, simple and warm, just like the sun, you have to be the light of your mother, make her strong not to think nonsense, you know little one~”
“Mmm!” Gu Yi Yang nodded firmly, his eyes were wide open, like a soldier voting for his heart, only his mouth was still wrapped in food and his cheeks were puffed up, which in turn was a bit cute.
Gathering Jane taught the child well, and did not refuse to accept the kindness of bystanders because of the feud between adults.
Smiling gratefully, his eyes flicked around just in time to catch a glimpse of Gathering Jane’s deep sigh.
“If even you give up, there is really no hope for Gu Han.”
I couldn’t help but frown after saying that, after all the changes that had happened, all that was left around Gu Han that he could rely on was actually only Gathering Jane and me.
The words were likewise a reminder to myself that I couldn’t let go of my hand, no matter what.
The first thing you need to do is to take a look at the people you’ve met.
Fu Shen Yan nothing much reaction, calmly put his hand on the back of my hand, through the warmth of the palm, give me some strength.
“To give up, I wouldn’t have waited until now.” The pale face of Gao Jian gave a bitter smile, “I just don’t understand, Gu Han loves you so much, for your sake several deaths and several lives, losing everything is not afraid, is not just a disease, how can not hold on a little firm? I thought a man as ruthless and determined as he was would have been fearless long ago, but it turns out he’s just a coward.”
“Don’t say that in front of the child.” The child didn’t want to see it, although his heart was sad with it.
“Why shouldn’t I say something!” Gathering Jane’s emotions suddenly became agitated, “He’s the one who came to mess with me, he’s the one who stole my heart and abandoned it like it was mine, I gave up everything and suffered everything to love him, I’m the one who never left his care when he was too sick to care for himself, I’ve seen all his unbearable looks, I’m the one who’s been with him the longest, how am I not qualified to judge him! “