Chapter 729
Pulling him out of the hotel, the driver brought the car around and when we got in, he leaned against my shoulder, his breathing shallow.
Quiet unlike him.
Halfway there, he suddenly spoke, “Stop the car!”
The driver, somewhat confused, pulled the car over and Fu Shen Yan got out, throwing up everything in his stomach.
I got out to buy water and when I came back I saw him leaning against the car with his eyes closed.
“Rinse your mouth.” Handing him the glass of water, I spoke.
He opened his eyes slightly and then rinsed his mouth.
The car restarted and he leaned against it with his eyes closed.
Half an hour later, the car pulled up outside the villa and I let the driver help him up to the bedroom, ready to go to the kitchen to make him a glass of honey water.
But before I could get into the kitchen, I heard vomiting coming from upstairs and went upstairs to see Fu Shen Yan in a mess as he had vomited before he reached the bedroom.
The driver looked at his back, and I looked at Fu Shenyan, not knowing what to say for a moment.
I helped him back to the bedroom, put him on the bed and saw that it was getting late, so I asked the driver to go home first.
After a brief clean-up, I returned to the bedroom and saw Fu Shen Yan lying unmoving on the bed.
I said, “Fu Shen Yan!”
He answered, “Yes!”
“Wash up first before you go to sleep.” With that, I walked over to him and untied his jacket, which was originally flat and a little wrinkled.
Luckily, although he was drunk, he was very obedient to Hu, and after taking off his jacket, I spoke, “Go to the bathroom first and take a shower.”
He nodded, got up and went into the bathroom somewhat shakily, and I found my pyjamas and bath towel and followed him in.
After all, he was a drunk and was already standing under the shower rinsing without even taking off his clothes.
Putting the clothes in my hand aside, I turned off the shower and reached out to pick up the buttons of his shirt for him, “Fu Shenyan, take off your clothes before you shower.”
He nodded, his gaze dazed, “Okay!”
He did as he was told.
Putting the shirt aside, I was a little stunned, the man was fit and defined.
It wasn’t that it hadn’t been seen before, it was just that in this case I was harming to take off the lower half of his body.
I couldn’t help but open my mouth, “Fu Shen Yan, take your trousers off yourself and take a shower, I’ll wait outside.”
He nodded, obedient.
I turned around and went out of the bathroom, taking the door with me.
After sitting in the bedroom and waiting for a long time, the sound of water running came from the bathroom.
I gathered up all the clothes he had changed into and put them outside the bathroom.
After waiting for a while, I saw that there was no water running in the bathroom and he did not come out for half a day, so I was a bit worried.
When I pushed the door in, I saw Fu Shen Yan’s toned back. Subconsciously, I turned my back and said, “Fu Shen Yan, put your pajamas on when you’re done.”
When I didn’t hear a response, I frowned and spoke again, “Fu Shen Yan ……”
The body was violently hugged by him from behind, the moist breath surrounded me, I stiffened up for a moment, my breath slightly stuttered, “Fu Shen Yan you ……”
“Call your husband!” He opened his mouth, his chin against my shoulder, his hot breath hitting my neck, a shallow flood of alienation.
“You …… put your pajamas back on.” Men and women, not unexperienced, only, I had the heart to resist, so I hardly ever had it with him.
He didn’t make any move, but he just built me a little tighter. I had originally worn a dress at the wedding banquet, and because of the trouble, I had just returned and changed into a comfortable nightgown.
Through the thin fabric, I could almost notice the changes in his body.
I had forgotten that he was a man, a man in the prime of his life.
I raised my hand, covered his bony hand, and spoke slightly, “Fu Shen Yan, it’s getting late.”
He gave an enunciation, as if his inebriation had not dissipated, and broke my body so that I was looking at him eye to eye.
He pressed his cool lips down with barely a hint of suspense, eager and restrained.
Suffocated by his k i s s, I raised my hand to stop it, only to have him hold it with his opposite hand, “Shen Shu, he didn’t touch you, did he?”
I froze, almost completely oblivious to who he was referring to by him.
“What?”
Chapter 730
He didn’t speak anymore, just something like a storm of k i s s e s sweeping in as if he was going to eat me alive.
He was in the mood.
I’d noticed it at the hotel, only, why?
I had thought he was tired, but now it seemed that he wasn’t.
The heat in the bathroom filled the room, and there was nothing about his toned body that had all seven emotions.
“Fu Shen Yan!” I spoke, my person already in his arms.
He stopped moving, his breath ragged, and his dark eyes looked at me in obscurity.
Clearly puzzled.
“Are you angry?” I spoke, somewhat puzzled and with a cautious gesture.
He looked at me, his dark eyes slightly averted, his gaze as warm and soft as ever.
“No?” He spoke, a slight hiss in his voice, obviously left with strong restraint.
I shook my head, “Yes, but let’s not be here, okay?”
He wrapped his arms around me, his voice low and introspective, “Yes!”
Back in the bedroom, he laid me on the bed.
It was not unheard of for men and women to be honest with each other, it was just that the atmosphere was different.
I didn’t sleep for a long time this night, lying next to him, with a vague pain in my heart.
In the latter part of the night, vaguely asleep, there was a groan of pain in my ears, and I sat up straight and turned on the bedside lamp.
I sat up straight and turned on the bedside lamp. Fu Shenyan was sweating, his brow was furrowed, and he kept crying out in pain under his breath.
It was a nightmare.
I woke him up, “Fu Shen Yan ……”
He woke up, saw it was me, looked back for a moment, and fiercely hugged me to death, his voice low and hoarse, “Shen Shu, don’t go!”
I froze for a moment, reaching out and pulling him down to soothe him, “I’m not leaving!”
Lying back on the bed, he wrapped his arms around me, I raised my hand to wipe his sweat and spoke, “Did you dream?”
He nodded and held me in his arms, taking a deep breath and saying, “The darkness has emptied me out, Shen Shu, you are all I have.”
Only later did I realise that it wasn’t just me who was drowning in pain; for four years, I had four seasons to heal, but he was left to languish in the darkness by himself.
Moving over, I shrank into his arms, “As long as you need me, I won’t go away, not for the rest of my life.”
He wasn’t the only one who was lonely, Fu and I were like two puppets at the bottom of the ocean, needing to snuggle up to each other to survive the darkness that engulfed us.
He said, “You see this room is empty, every time I wake up in the middle of the night, it’s cold and icy around me, icy like you’ve never been there, sometimes I wonder if all those years past, if you’ve never been there, that you’re the one I thought up because I was too lonely.”
“The villa in Jiangcheng, every time I went in, I felt empty and silent, then I went to the cemetery to see my grandmother and grandfather, their tombstones so clear, I began to wonder again if I was in a dream, on the way back to the villa, I gave birth to the idea of driving the car down the cliff, wanting to wake up from the dream …… ”
I held his hand, interlocked fingers, heart vaguely guilty of pain, “I’m sorry!”
He said, “Shen Shu, grandfather taught me how to survive in the mall, taught me how to confront my enemies, but he had not taught me how to love, how to love, met you, I took temptation for love, hurt you, I’m sorry.”
I shook my head and there were tears slipping from my eyes, “I was the one who was too stubborn.”
No one is perfect, and for seven years I had seemed to go against the grain, but I had never truly put myself in his shoes.
I loved him, in the wrong way.
About the baby, if I had told him what I wanted, not had to fake an abortion to deceive him, shown him weakness, not just thought about leaving.
He wouldn’t have worried that I would leave him when I had the power of the Mo family, let alone let our child die, let alone let Muzi die because of me, let alone let my relationship with my biological mother and father become what it is today, with resentment in my heart.