Chapter 817
He was a little warm and angry, “Shen Shu are you out of your mind, would I do such a thing with my own child?”
I laughed coldly and looked at him somewhat unflinchingly, “How is that impossible? What is it that you wouldn’t do? An unscrupulous businessman, how noble do you think you are?”
His face sank sharply, his voice low and cold, without the slightest warmth, “Shen Shu, Fu Shen Yan will spoil you, but I won’t. I’m more anxious than you are about the four seasons being lost, but that’s no reason for you to be unreasonable.”
“I’m being unreasonable?” Looking at all the furnishings in his room, with the toys that Four Seasons usually likes to cuddle on the sofa, I became more and more irritable, and almost without thinking, I sneered, “Fine, then I’ll show you what being unreasonable is.”
Without waiting for his reaction, I raised my hand and pushed all the expensive red wine on the wine cabinet onto the floor.
This was followed by the sound of breaking gla*s and the floor was spread with blood red wine.
“Are you crazy?” He roared.
I didn’t care, I grabbed something in my hand and smashed it on the ground, shouting, “Give me back my daughter ……”
There is no way to control one’s emotions sometimes, and when one gets too excited, there is no difference between that and going crazy.
When I realized that Cheng Junyu’s home had been almost smashed to pieces by me, Fu Shenyan had already arrived.
Cheng Junyu grimaced and looked at Fu Shen Yan angrily, “You should take her to the hospital, she’s more serious than you think.”
Fu Shen Yan confined me to the words and frowned at him, his voice cold, “What you should be thinking about now is how to get the Four Seasons back as soon as possible.”
After saying that, he almost carried me out of Cheng Junyu’s house.
In the car, I had calmed down, with red wine spilled on me and my hair in disarray.
I knew that I looked a mess now, and even as I smashed into Cheng Junyu’s house, I was almost completely unaware of what I was thinking.
I returned to the hotel, took a shower and lay on the bed, staring at the ceiling for a long time.
Fu Shen Yan stood by the bed, looking at me, his eyes deep and without low, and he said, “Shen Shu, let’s go to the hospital, okay?”
I turned my head to look at him, without the hesitation and panic I had just felt, but I had relaxed my emotions.
Suddenly he smiled, “What are we going to do at the hospital?”
He looked at me, his eyes held a bit of pain in them, and I always felt the sting of looking at them, so I just stopped looking.
I sat up straight from the bed and looked at him, cloudy and uncertain, “Fu Shen Yan, do you also do not want the four seasons to follow me? Did you lie to me with him, did you also help him hide the Four Seasons?”
He frowned and looked at me, his thin black eyes held a light, a somewhat dazed look fell on me, and he spoke almost incredulously, “Shen Shu, I ……”
“It’s you guys, isn’t it?” I interrupted him and somewhat intensified, “You don’t want the four seasons and you don’t want me, you all want to throw me away, all of you want to throw me away.”
My eyes lowered and I began to cry, the sadness in my heart seemed to have been spreading for so long that when it suddenly opened up, it tore at my heart a little.
It became more and more uncontrollable.
I saw the pain in Fu Shenyan’s eyes and was suddenly a little confused as to why all my thoughts were suddenly so extreme and negative.
But I couldn’t pull myself away from those extreme thoughts, almost certain that the four seasons were being deliberately hidden from them.
That night, I somehow managed to fall asleep in Fu Shen Yan’s arms.
When I woke up the next day, Fu Shenyan was no longer there, and I was still a little blurry when I looked out the window at the drizzling rain.
The memory of yesterday was clear, and I knew clearly that I seemed to have made a mistake yesterday.
My brain hurt so badly that I buried my head under the covers, but the more I didn’t want to, the easier it was to think about it.
Chapter 818
I lay in bed staring at the ceiling for a long time before I came back to my senses.
I might have been really sick, or perhaps, that extremely selfish one was the original me.
Fu Shen Yan was not at the hotel, so after washing up, I was ready to go out, but I met Shen Yu who was about to knock on the door.
When he saw my haggard face, he frowned, “Didn’t you sleep well last night?”
I raised my hand to pinch my brow and shook my head, “Nothing, have you heard from the Four Seasons?”
He hmmed and gestured for me to go in and talk.
I moved away and made a place for him to enter the room.
Sitting down on the sofa, I didn’t say anything, just waited for his words.
He poured himself a gla*s of water and looked at me, “Xiao Shu, are you happy with Fu Shen Yan?”
I frowned, a little unhappy, “Shen Yu, I thought you were here to talk to me about the four seasons.”
He raised his hand and touched his nose and coughed, “Well, I did come to talk to you about the Four Seasons, but right now the most important thing is you, the Four Seasons has Fu Shen Yan and the Cheng family and the Shen family, let’s talk about you first, okay?”
Being looked at by him with sudden seriousness, I was a little uncomfortable and pursed my lips as I looked at him and said, “What’s my problem?”
“Just answer my question.”
I frowned, a little displeased, but being stared at by him, I still spoke, “Between me and Fu Shen Yan, it’s always been fine.”
He pursed his lips, “What I asked was are you happy? It’s not a question of whether it’s good or not.”
I always felt that he was being fussy, which made me a little annoyed, so I frowned and said, “Shen Yu, can you tell me what happiness is?”
Life is so long, and all the chicken scratch is a story, and since it’s a story, how can there not be sadness and happiness?
What is the definition of happiness? Happiness, if it can only be defined by being happy, then is the definition of happiness, too narrow?
He sat up straighter and sighed slightly, “Xiao Shu, you know more about what happiness is than I do? You don’t want to answer me because you’ve already started to have burdens and feelings in this relationship, you still have a grudge against Fu Shenyan no matter what, deep down in your heart, you still resent him, don’t you?”
I fell silent, looking at the gla*s of water in front of me, “So, what are you trying to say?”
“Either you leave him for good or you go to the hospital, get therapy and start over with him, it’s not clear what you’re doing with him.”
Unknowing?
At this point, I no longer knew what was wrong with me now, all I knew was that I wasn’t well.
A lot of the time, I simply don’t have control over my irritability and indifference.
There is no way to heal the wounds that have accumulated over the years, they can only be buried. Over time, buried under the flesh, they look like no big deal, but once you rip them up, you can see the wounds that have rotted away.
After a few moments of silence, I spoke, “I’ll go to the hospital, but not now.”
He nodded, not pushing too hard anymore.
For a moment, I tilted my head to look at him, “Shen Yu, we shouldn’t be talking here right now.”
He nodded and looked at me, “Well, I know, you’re worried about the Four Seasons, we should go to the Four Seasons.”
“So ……”
“Shue, listen to me first, okay?” He put the gla*s of water down in his hand and looked at me and said, “You listen to me first, but you must stay calm, okay?”
That ……
I asked him tentatively, “So, you found the Four Seasons? Is that right?”
He nodded, but his face didn’t look good.