Chapter 827
Ivana Lin looked at me and saw that I put it down after a few bites and was a little distressed as she said, “You always need to eat more, otherwise how will you have the energy to take care of him.”
I thought so and forced myself to eat a few more bites, unable to eat any more before I put the box down.
She gathered it up and looked at me, still distressed, “You must take care of yourself.”
I was too busy looking at her and felt a bit of a blockage in my heart, I didn’t hold back and looked at her, “What was on your mind when you dropped me off in the first place?”
There was something abrupt about such a topic; for years I had told people every day that it was okay to not have biological parents, that I didn’t need them.
But, in fact, every time I saw someone walking around pampering their parents, I was so envious that I dared not look at them more than a few times for fear that they would see through the envy.
She dropped her tears and her body trembled a little, which I knew was the emotion of sadness and difficulty.
I didn’t wait for her to answer, I spoke to myself, “When I was a child I wrote an essay that won a prize, about third grade, the title of the essay was ‘my mother’, my grandmother was very happy and asked me that I wanted to see my essay, I didn’t show it to her, I didn’t even show it to Muzi who went to school with me I wanted to burn that essay, but I couldn’t let it go in the end.”
Seeing her wipe her tears, I sighed, “In fact, you are not like the mother I imagined, I always wondered what my mother was like when I was a child, because I had never seen her, so I thought she would be like Muzi’s mother, who liked to nag, every time Muzi did not get up in the morning, she would stand by Muzi’s bed and nag, and then keep arguing until Muzi broke down, or maybe, my mother would be like I’ve thought of you in many ways, but I just never thought of you like this, you don’t seem to be what I thought you would be, not as nice and warm as I expected, your presence didn’t bring me beauty and joy, it only brought pain.”
Her voice was choked, probably too hard, and she did not catch her breath for a few moments.
She said, “Shen Shu, I’m sorry, I was wrong, you give me another chance, I’ll try my best, I’ll make sure to be as good a mother as you think I am.”
I was a little heartbroken, the people I missed day and night as a child, it turned out that when I grew up I found that maybe some people are only good enough for living memory.
I pulled a tissue and gave it to her so she could wipe her tears, “I can’t understand how you felt and how sad you were when you abandoned me, but I can understand how much you love your own child, Grandma said that no matter how dark our path is, there must be sunshine in our hearts, but I didn’t get to sit with my face to the sun all the time, none of you were actually wrong, probably the only thing wrong was life, I resented you at first, but now I don’t But I don’t anymore.”
No one in this world is perfect. Lin Ivana and Mo Zhi Zhan are not bad people, nor are they good people, and although they are at fault as parents, they are not always at fault.
I’m probably lucky to have met Fu Shenyan’s loving and caring parents, and I’m also lucky that my parents are not heartless and ungrateful.
The mother that Liu Yue spoke of would have been disgusting to anyone who met her.
Zhou Ranxi’s fate is sad enough: she was thrown away as a child, and now that she has achieved something, she is forced to do so by her own parents.
When you think about it, how can life be perfect? Who doesn’t have a lot of chicken feathers and still have to trudge forward to face life.
Ivana Lin said, “Xiao Shu, I know, you’ve had a hard time all these years, we’ll walk with you on the road ahead, as long as you leave us behind, we’ll always be there.”
Chapter 828
I pursed my lips, smiled slightly lightly, looked at her and said, “Your porridge smells good, thanks!”
She froze slightly and her tears fell even harder, but smiled.
I guess it’s always time to let go, I don’t want to become the same as Cheng Junyu.
The so-called release is not a whitewash, but rather, after digging into the wound, still believe that the future can be expected.
I was not very sleepy, considering that I had to get up in the middle of the night to move Fu Shenyan, so I had to stay here.
In the middle of the night, I was lightly asleep when I vaguely noticed a movement and opened my eyes to see Fu Shenyan trying to move his body to get up.
Almost subconsciously, I sat up straight from the bed and got out of bed to help him.
Seeing that I was awake, his forehead was sweating slightly because he had probably pulled his wound, and he looked at me apologetically and said, “Did I wake you?”
I shook my head, a little distressed, and held him up, “What’s wrong with you? The doctor said not to get out of bed yet.”
He pursed his lips, his arm pinned to the edge of the bed, and said, “Go to the bathroom.”
I froze slightly and spoke, “There’s a potty ……”
“Help me!” He spoke, his voice still low and strong, with his characteristic magnetism and coldness.
Always proud, I couldn’t argue with him and simply helped him out of bed.
At five foot eight, he was holding me up, and I don’t know if it was just me, but he didn’t seem to be putting his weight on me.
When we got into the bathroom, he still had an infusion in his arm, and I barely thought twice about it as I lowered my head to help him untie his trousers.
He held it down with one hand, looking a little helpless, “Okay, I can do it myself, you go wait for me outside.”
I was uneasy, “It’s not convenient for you to sit down!” It was my back that was injured, walking was fine, but sitting down would pull at the wound.
He smiled lightly and shook his head, “It’s okay, wait for me outside, be a good boy.”
I looked at him, really uneasy, hung his IV bottle aside and spoke, “I’ll untie you, I won’t look at you, I’ll just help you sit down.”
“Good boy, wait for me outside!” He had a smile on his face, half coaxing, half pushing, “Don’t worry, I’m not a child, I’m sure of myself, I’ll call you if anything happens.”
Looking at each other, he was so sure that I would believe him, I wondered how anyone could be so stubborn!
Sighing slightly, I exited the bathroom and the bathroom door was pushed up on him.
I pursed my lips, realising that this man really was quite stubborn.
Because I wasn’t sure, I sat outside and waited for a while, it was too long and I was a bit worried, so I couldn’t help but open my mouth to the bathroom and shout, “Fu Shen Yan, are you okay?”
“Yes, I’m fine!” He replied, his voice cool and dry.
About ten minutes later, when I heard the sound of water, I got up and was ready to go in, but I didn’t expect him to be standing at the door just as I pushed it open.
Relieved to see that he was okay, I reached out and helped him back to his bed.
The nurse came in and changed his medication as it was required every three hours, this time without much covering, exposing the wound directly to the air.
Looking at the large burns on his back, my heart clenched for a moment and I let out a cold sweat of shock.
“The rotten skin is basically gone, there is new flesh starting to grow, you still need to stay in hospital for a while, as much as possible do not make large movements, it will tear the new flesh and affect the speed of the wound healing.” The doctor finished his explanation, removed the rotten flesh from Fu Shen Yan’s back, put away the scalpel, and then asked the nurse to continue coming out of the wound.
I looked at the wound on his back, a bloody mess, and couldn’t help but shiver in shock as my sweat stood on end.